Paradox - Navigating the Both/And in Leadership and Life
Today, we hear from Kathy Rohlman, a brilliant, brave, and badass human who has bravely shared her experience navigating the paradox of leadership.
At least once a month in 2024, we will hear from humans who help us see learning, leadership, and liberation in new and everyday ways, holding the precious truths and focusing our eyes to see.
Heartfelt thanks to you, Kathy, for sharing your wise reflections with us.
Fellow leaders and learners, I wish you courage, rest, and beloved community along the journey.
Webster’s Dictionary defines Paradox as: one (such as a person, situation, or action) having seemingly contradictory qualities or phases.
A number of years ago, I was challenged by my own binary thinking - and my strong attachment to it. I, like many, was quite comfortable with either/or thinking around right/wrong, love/hate, war/peace, etc. And not only comfortable, but I would fight you to the death if you were not on the same side as me! It was as though it was my job to convince you to get on the “right side” of any issue. For me, the idea that two opposing ideas could exist was confusing, weak, and inferior to logic. For the last 20+ years, I have been actively seeking ways to embrace the notion of paradox and the anxiety of uncertainty, which has changed my life for the better.
My early formation in the workforce saw leadership as a hierarchical ladder that left those of us on the bottom rungs, pining to get to the top. That pining meant a betrayal of self and others in order to get to a place of power. Fortunately, in my mid-30s, I was introduced to The Rule of Benedict, which included commentary from Joan Chittister. According to Sr. Joan, “The function of authority is not to control the other; it is to guide and to challenge and to enable the other.” St. Benedict and Sr. Joan Chittister began disrupting my view by saying leaders were not to be above a group; they were to be at the center - the movers of the group.
When I chose non-profit leadership as a career, I hoped that I would be the leader that I read so much about, not just from Benedict and Sr. Joan but many others…That I could operate from a place of center where I acknowledge my weaknesses and limitations AND push others to be better versions of themselves…To work within systems of policies and procedures AND to fight against systems of oppression…To have compassion and love for my team AND hold them accountable. My naivete and my ego put me in a place where I believed people would connect to my authentic leadership style, and together, we would change the world…I have learned, it’s just not that easy.
We humans are very complicated! We want flowers but not rain. We want joy but not sorrow. We want success but not failure. We want growth but not struggle. The Buddhists say - no mud, no lotus. And we as humans have no desire to sit in mud.
Our liberation comes in leadership and in life when we can embrace the paradoxes, especially when others want to remain binary.
Here are the things that I attempt to practice to aid in embracing paradox:
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